Today, my Apple died.

I am beyond upset right now. Trauma has set in.

My poor little Apple Shuffle just quit on me at the time I needed it most. Dammit, I'm about to board a plane for gawd knows how many hours??? and how many effin' layovers with NO MUSIC! NOTHING TO LISTEN TO!!!

Beans tried her best to help me. I mean, she stopped whatever work she was doing and tried troubleshooting the "factory restore" (sync) issue that I was having when I tried to transfer some CD music files to my shuffle, and for whatever reason, I had wiped out my entire music library and the damn thing refused to load any new material. I was absolutely devastated. I've been plugged in for the past few days; STRESSED, bypassing conversations and human contact. Now I have a belly ache.

I liked my (temporary) serene musical world. Just having the safety of those little white earbuds tucked into my lobes gave me a sense of anonymity. I didn't need to make airplane friends. I could ignore perverted porters and the stares from strangers who think I'm someone I'm not.

I was able to pick up a new read that I've been waiting for: Magical Thinking along with a few leftover trashy Enquirers and Globe magazines from my Mom. Along with these, clutching my Pepperidge Farms Brussel Mint cookies and whatever energy drink I can find, dressed in a gray track suit and oversized shades I'm going to look homeless on that plane. Or like a star.

Rest in pieces, little Apple Shuffle.

For you I dedicate: the lyrics to Chasing Pavements (because I've been singing this song all day, and now it's all I've got...)

I've made up my mind / No need to think it over, If i'm wrong I aint right / No need to look no further,

This ain't lust, This is love but, If i tell the world, I'll never say enough,

Cause it was not said to you, And thats exactly what i need to do, If i'm in love with you, Should i give up,

Or should i just keep chasing pavements? Even if it leads nowhere, Or would it be a waste? Even If i knew my place should i leave it there?

Should i give up, Or should i just keep chasing pavements? Even if it leads nowhere, I'd build myself up, And fly around in circles, Wait then as my heart drops, and my back begins to tingle, finally could this be it...